A Loved One's Message

To my dearest family, somethings id like to say but first of all to let you know that i arrived ok. I'm writing this from heaven where i dwell with God above where there are no more tears or sadness there is just eternal Love. Please dont be unhappy just because im outta sight remember that im with you every morning noon and night. The day i had to leave you when my life on Earth was through God picked me up and hugged me and said "I welcome you, Its good to have you back again you were missed while you were gone as for your dearest family they will be here later on."
  "See I need you so badly as part of my big plan, theres so much we have to do to help the mortal man."
Then God gave a list of things He wished for me to do And formost on that list of mine is to watch and care for you.
  I will be beside you every day, week and year and when you're sad I'm standing there to wipe away your tears.And when you lie in bed at night the days of chores put to flight God and I are closest to you in the middle of the night.
  When you think of my life on Earth and all those loveing years because your only human they are bound to bring you tears,But do not be afraid to cry it does relieve the pain remember there would be no flowers unless there was some rain.
  I wish that i could tell you of all that God has planned but if i were to tell you you wouldnt understand but one thing is for certain thogh my life on Earth is over I am closer to you now than I ever was before and to my very many friends trust God knows what is best Im still not far away from you I'm just above the crest there may be rocky roads ahead and many hills to climb but together we can do it taking one day at a time.
  It was always my philosophy and i'd like it for you too that as you give unto the world so the world will give to you. If you can help somebody who's in sorrow or in pain then you can say to God at night my day was not in vain.
 And now I am contented that my life ,tho short,  was worth while knowing as i passed along the way i made somebody smile.
  So if you meet somebody who is down and feeling low just lend a hand to pick them up as on your way you go.
   When you are walking down the street and you've got me on your mind just remember I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.And when you feel that gentle breeze or wind apon your face thats me giving you a great big hug or just a soft embrace.
  And when its time for you to go from that body to be free remember your not going away,  your coming here to me  I will always love you from the land way up above we will be in touch real soon

      P.S. God sends his love.
                                                                                                                        Love ya
                                                                                                                                   me
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THIS IS A POEM I FOUND IN MY MOMS PAPERS AND SUCH AND I JUST THOUGHT IT IRONIC TO FIND IT CAUSE I JUST HAD A ROUGH PATCH ON MY BIRTHDAY AND NOW I BELIEVE SHE KNEW I WOULD FIND IT WHEN I NEEDED IT. I LOVE YOU MOMMY AND I MISS YOU SO MUCH BUT I AM STRONG AND I KNOW WE ARE ALWAYS TOGETHER BUT DAMN IT I WANT YOU BACK IN YOUR BODY SO BAD.

my birthday blowed big ones

ok here it goes the true reason why i started a blog so i would have to get all emotional with people when things are just seeming shitty for me.
yesterday was my birthday i turned 28 along with my nieces 11th birthday which is cool except when the 11 yr old belongs to people who we now have a strained relationship due to i guess way different life styles now. it just sucks to see people who are your family treat there friends like they were the family and we were the outsiders the funny thing is we seen it through different people but it just seems different this time and i dont know why. my hubby crys more now then i have ever seen him cry he is at such a loss at why  people treat him like a piece of trash even his own family that he just dont know what to do anymore, he has never done anything to be concidered that in my opinion but my opinion isnt theres ya know? i mean they just dont have anything good to say about us most the time and yea its at me too but im more mad that its aimed at josh just because he doesnt have good work ethic at times so fing what niether did his or does some of his family but we dont constantly down grade them all the time ya i complain  but not just constantly being nasty.and most the time im like well it there life let them live it how they want cause its not affecting me but it is in ways.
  ok anyways we got off subject a little, im all for having birthdays centered aound the kids cause in reality that is who it for but it just makes you feel like crap when its your own family who doesnt even hardly remember that it my birthday too, my own aunt who has been that for 28 yrs now keeps forgetting and then announced it in front of everyone that she forgot, what a great feeling well now things will defenatly be different cause im starting to relise we have to be out for our selves as much as possible instead of constantly getting my feeling hurt cause family shouldnt be that way especially when it is your own brother or sister or something like that.

well since i cried through most of this im gunna get off of here for now i have a headache but ill probably put more later and THATS MY LIFE OR SOMETHING LIKE IT...................................................................